I'm A Disgusting Writer

I feel way too guilty that this blog has been left so empty... But lately life has taken way too many twists, turns, and bellyflops so I guess it just makes me keep wanting to find an excuse to not have to think about things like this blog, work, school, etc... School's been over for a while so I don't know what I'm doing still not doing anything productive at all! XD

Maybe nothing at all is a bit of an exaggeration since I've already picked my classes for the next school quarter (it's looking super busy! D: ) and I've also finished reading "Catch-22" by Joseph Heller. When I was a kid I was picky about books - I disliked 1 out of maybe 10 books that came in contact with my hands. Because of that I used to think that I hated reading in general, as I got older I realized it's not that I hate books, but I've been a dope for letting other people pick books for me instead of me picking books I like on my own (durhurrr...). So lately I've been trying to get myself to read like I never used to do.

Today I have no art to share but today I will share that I am an occasional (sadly not so great) writer of strange short stories and senseless drabbles. If anyone's ever read Catch-22, it will be easy to see that that book's style inspired the drabble.

Here's a random snippet of what I wrote as of late:

“Now, see here. I am the only one who will help you – can't you understand that?”

“I can't understand that.”

“Why not?” And he would furrow those greying blonde brows of his. After all, Mr. Mansley the school counselor before him was a man of true compassion and principle. Mr. Adelbert Mansley was heartfelt over the principle of looking like he was a good man.. “Understand this – no one will help you but me. Me and my...” he cleared his weak throat for a moment.”Our friends.”

“Our friends,” he agreed.

“Our friends are here to make sure that you're good to go for life.”

“Good to go for life!” he raised a fist into the air.

“It's what you could be if you'd just let us help you then you'd see it our way.”

“If it's our way then I must already understand it now, sir!”

With that he pounded his thick fists against the table. As he was a boy full of much respect for his authorities, he made special sure to pound his fist on “sir”. That way the man could revel in the fact that his very presence was enough to demand passion and fervor. And to be theatrical and demonstrate how deeply he felt, he even got up and kicked the plastic chair he sat upon.

The man shook his head. His face was contorted in an expression of some strange passion. He must have understood what he meant with that moment of passion.

Exactly.

To the dot as to what he'd meant..

“No, no, no... I don't think you quite understand...” with that, Mr. Mansley sighed and kindly offered his self-pitying self a bottle of water to quench his poor throat. The compassionate man's talents were being wasted on this boy who made no sense to him. The only thing that was keeping Mr. Mansley on board with this was the respect that the boy was so good at presenting and the dream that if he could solve this boy's "case" then he'd become a hero of some sort.

The boy picked up the chair and stood it up on its sides, never taking his eyes off of the school counselor as to make sure it was known that he was still being perfectly respectful.

Final Figure Drawing Dump Part 3

These are the first ones I did. Thanks for bearing with me on this. XD

This one was before the actual session started. The girl helping to run the event was standing around so I tried to draw her and then scribbled around on various pages to warm up and loosen up.

Figure Drawing Dump Part 2

About all the color figure drawings from earlier - sorry that my camera wasn't so good with the colors. >_< Not that they were super vibrant in real life or anything, but the pictures weren't that blurry. Oh, well... for now enjoy some 1 minute charcoals.

Woowww... so bad with the "once a week update" minimum thing. >__>; It's been over a week since I last updated... =___= And for that I guess that means DUMP TIME (sorry!).

First off, this club I joined at my college offers a 3 times a week figure drawing session for $4 a session (suuuper good price!). So the first dump will be my figure drawings.

Above are the 2 minute ones I did. At one point I stopped altogether because the pastels I used were REALLY bad. By bad I mean it was hurting my hands bad. The pigment would not show up on the paper unless you really SCRAPED it onto the page. My hand started really cramping up so I gave myself a small break.

Above are the five minutes ones - the last ones I got to do before having to go home. I did it in watercolor to give my hand a rest if anything. My hands were starting to cramp up with charcoals, pastels, etc. so I picked up a brush which allowed my hands to lax up more and went through the five minute poses with watercolor paint.

I was at the school library today looking through a collection of clothing catalogues from the 1920s. I drew in my sketchbook then decided to give it a shot by sketching some out digitally. I sorta regret it, now D: Ah, my lord... The lady's head came out too puny and her umbrella is like... wtf is that? ; A ; But anyways, I'm kinda uploading it since I haven't uploaded a sketch in a while. XD

I haven't mentioned yet on this blog but I've been watching Glee for the past few years. It's mainstream and admittedly over the top (very much so!) but it's still a show I enjoy watching. Yeah - how does that relate to anything?

I auditioned for something called "The Glee Project":

http://thegleeprojectcasting.com/Auditions/View/4097456

Call it shameless advertising? Haha! Anyways, I'll talk more about this in another time but for now cheers or something. O_O; (You don't have to click it if you don't want to.) For now sorry it's not so great - I finished it up laaaate at night and I didn't want to disrupt anyone and I had school the next day. I don't think I'm winning in the first place but I wanted to just do something with my time, I suppose~

First off, I'll give this thing I did about two weeks ago. I tried to draw a profile shot of John Lennon. Safe to say... I failed. ;____; I gave up pretty early in so maybe I coulda done more but... another day... >__>;

A painting practice doodle thing. I wanted to draw a face since I'm comfortable with that. I said earlier my goal was to figure out a painting style thing for myself. So... I did try and work on that. Dunno how it's going, though. Haha! However - I DO feel like I've improved which is a GOOD SIGN [insert my only clap for myself here].

The drawing is of a character named Adrian. I don't know why he's making that face either. P: He has braces in case no one noticed. D: And he's supposed to be Filipino - dunno if he looks it, though. >_<

In order Adrian, Jeanie (Janet), and Carly (Carolynne). Adrian appeared above the other two are new for anyone watching the blog, haha. P: My amaaazing friend Emu linked me a super funny link that consisted of the wrap party for Doctor Who http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3s4Czla6tXc on David Tennant's leaving as the role of the Doctor. I made a funny spaz dance and felt like drawing some characters doing that so I did a quickie sketch thing and smashed them together like this. P:

I decided to re-post an updated version of this to point out some things I did as a change up to make it more "character sheety". I added his height next to his head. I sooo did not bother with weights because uh... that stuff fluctuates and I'm scared I might calculate out a number that's unrealistic.

And the cast thing that I stated in the last post was probably vague... More specifically I have different stories in my mind. Each story has its own set of characters. A cast is the story's set of characters. Ark's cast has been named "Pora Former Cast" as of yesterday (I might change it P: ).

OKAY! So a NEW one. This one is for Martin Erxol.

TIME: 1 hr 30-40 min

According to my aaaaamazing friend Suzie yesterday was apparently self-portrait day. Me, being a total derp about things like that did not know that... >__>; Anyways... I thought that I might as well give it a shot since y'know... I need stuff to do in order to successfully procrastinate on my essay! D:< (I enjoy it, too! Don't worry~ ;) )

Anyways, for this thing I don't think it looked like me in the end so... pooey for that. The lines I added because I thought it'd look cool if I did that - I dunno if it adds or detracts in a way that makes it annoying/distracting but I thought I might as well mess around, hey... originally my pose wasn't a "uh... can't hear you!" pose but I had a pen in my hand. I gave up when I realized the screen wasn't gonna take it compositionally well XD. So... anyone who knows me IRL - tell me what you HONESTLY think about it - even if all you have is "YO FACE UGLY IRL O: < ".

Still trying to bring up my real life observation painting skills. Still sucking... but I'm hopefully getting better at this stuff! The back you can is a pink, children chair and a massage chair with a plastic bag next to it. the front is a cubicle cup and a piece of my laptop screen.

CHARACTER SHEEET THINGEEEYY. I thought since all of my characters might as well be "who dat? O: " to random people who may be passing by (so far all my watchers are people I know irl, though Hahaha! ; A ; ) I decided to make a character sheet thingy out of the characters. It's a bit for myself, too since I tend to do inconsistent coloring stuff. Along with that, I wanted to make sure I had a clear idea of body stuff...

I want to do it by character story cast thing by cast. At first I wanted to start with the smallest cast list and move up to bigger cast lists to make sure I finish at least ONE cast. I originally wanted to start with Daniel's since I only have 3 characters to do with it so it wouldn't have taken long. BUT (always a but with me... ) it turns out I'm not good at drawing Daniel and Rachel to some extent in a digital media since I'm used to drawing him while scribbling with a marker pen or a 2B pencil. Imma need time to figure him out. P: George is okay, though!

Another smaller cast would have consisted of rabbits, but I thought "naaah".

So enjoy! I'll try to get more of the character sheets stuff done with my future posts. They usually don't take more than 20-40 minutes so they're a good thing if I have no idea. I got lots of characters to burn through so it should be something to last for me... Haha~

I kinda tried to draw Kaji in a more realistic style. I'm still kinda picking around with how I want her to ultimately look. Honestly, designing her became a bit awkward because I based the way she looked kinda off of a person I know in real life who doesn't really know me XD. When I get the chance and I think she's not looking I try jotting doodle notes of what she looks like. I did those notes some time after this doodle so a lot of it doesn't look like her... but that may be for the best because it'd be creepy if it seriously LOOKED just like her.

I drew a streak of stuff on "overlay" in photoshop. I thought it looked funny - don't ask. P: Haha

Character Ark's girl form Mia as a normal high school girl. It took me a while to decide on how a girl him would dress like and after seeing someone in real life I decided her casual dress is sorta like a dude's because she likes that. But she does have female attire that she has no problem wearing. The boots were because uh... I liked them and I can see her doing that. P:

The blonde girl who is supposed to be Ark/Mia's half-sister as a normal girl. She's supposed to be notably younger than her but... I have more fun drawing them as teenagers, I guess. P:

And sorry to everyone who has to suffer through talking about characters you don't even know - ha! ; A ;

Since my observational skill is BEYOND FAILURE - I decided to go around and draw some stuff while I was sitting outside.

This is the first one I did after looking at the trash bin in the back. I could blame the sun glare in my eyes that also made my screen hard to see - but I can't deny that a lot of it is my problem, too. =___=; Everything came out looking flat in the end. Go fig, hehe. :P But it's okay, I'll keep doing these until they look... decent! Until then I'll settle with it being not so awesome. >__< I would have tightened it up a bit more but then the two people left and the position of the sun became way too different fro where it was in the beginning so I basically decided to just leave it as it is at that point. XD

Attempt at something number two - I saw a tree in the general vicinity of where I was sitting around. I'm not very good with trees, especially the coniferous variety of them (I think they're hard!). I gave it a shot. I think I learned something, but at the same time I don't really love this tree all that much... It doesn't look coniferous at all! But oh, well - I must simply perseveeereee!!!

In the meanwhile I'll be doing some perspective practices so maybe the next things will look more... correctly placed in space? haha!

It's been exactly a week since I posted! See - I didn't forget. I'll try to kick myself into posting at least ONCE a week. So far it seems like I'm doing it... >___>;

This was stuff on the coffee table in my living room. It's a cup, tissue box, and asian back-scratcher. I'm not very good at still lives so I felt like I needed to practice. I also did one of some fake flowers (that were also on my coffee table. lol!), but I accidentally managed to delete it, somehow... >_< Some of it I'm okay with like the little scratchy part of the scratcher and the tissue box. But... I hate the cup because it looks like its dented inwards. D:

I made this while I was upset about something one day. (I really need to do a real anger painting next time! Haha.) As usual, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljnv3KGtcyI&fmt=18">I was listening to a song in my emo-ness D:< , and another Beatles song no less. Who's surprised that they're my favorite band? XD I was listening to the song as a way to calm myself down.

Ark and Martin dancing. I was messing around with some brushes and that's how the pink shape in the back came to be. Then I was all "hey, I should draw something to that". I, being the lame self I am - drew two people dancing.

OMG... it's been weeks. ;___; Sorry!!! So uh... I decided to procrastinate on studying for my mid-terms and stay up late (it's almost 3 AM>_O ) to do some art and post my awwwwwww-mazingly bad things that I came up with within the last few hours. >___<

This is a character named Kaji. She has wind powers and is a royal guard of some sort. She's supposed to be from Ark's world but from another planet. I drew her in the same pose in her casual wear and in her royal guard thingy outfit. I slapped in a suuuuuuper fail background last second. Sorry you had to see it. =___=; And if anyone can tell I based the look and stuff generally off of Chinese. However, her name isn't Chinese. Because I'm lazy I used the Uchinaguchi (language of Okinawa) word for "wind" as her name. I was listening to a song when I heard the word and went "yeah... let's roll with that".

This is another guy from Ark's world. He's a guy with boobs. Where and why did I come up with this? You know what? Let's not think that over too much... He's as far as I can tell sociopathic. He does illegal operation stuff like smuggling, assassinating, etc for high prices.

I got one more left if you dare to look at the ugliness....

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Oohhhhh my God. My eyes seriously hate this one. Especially the way the guy turned out! When I look at him I wanna KILL him. >_O But oh well... The scene is supposed to be between two friends, it's not supposed to be romantic but the fact that it's opposite genders and the bridal style carrying probably makes it look that way, huh? XD But it's not supposed to be.

Alright, maybe it's a bit pseudo-romantic... The girl's name is "Felicia Mason" and the guy is Cameron. In this one they're both teenagers. Felicia likes to fancy herself to a funny fantasy world she basically made up and dragged Cameron into from when she was little. She dubs herself a princess of some sort and she dubs Cameron as her knight. In her mind they're supposed to marry each other in the future because they've been good friends for a while and she's told him, too. In his mind he doesn't want to really marry her at all but he sees her as more like a sister figure. Even though he doesn't want to, if she seriously asked as adults he would say yes anyways.

Alright... I finally gave myself some time to do some digital stuff (at the expense of some flashcards I told myself to make >___>; ). I only did one little thing and a WIP to show - enjoy.

This I did on my new livestream account livestream which I tried for the first time that day with this really not so amazing thing here... I was loosely inspired with the circus idea that came from me listening to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vCiG7xoEb2Y">Being for the Benefit of Mr. Kite by The Beatles.

This is a quick sketch/digital sketch-painting practice thing that I did. I admit it's really sloppy and some parts can't really even be considered "refined", polished, or anything along the lines of that... Ah, well... This is just practice because I'm trying to figure out digital painting, see? So far I make lots of blocks of colors since I tend to make super muddy colors when I try to mix them. QAQ This character is Ark's father Cliff.

So far his story is iffy and I COULD change it, the only thing that's stayed so far is that his life kinda sucks. His mother died when he was very little and his father was an alcoholic who died on him when he was somewhere between a teenager or in his 20s. He paid for his father's coffin even though he was broke and was the guy who had to bury it in the end.

Alright. For some reason (how do I come up with something EVERY week - I don't know...) blogspot wasn't let me upload anything. It would always come up with "error" >___<; But now I GOT it~

This is to be a break from all the random sketches of characters that are as good as vague to everyone. I'm going to show some life drawings I do - I hope to find some time some day to do some MORE life drawing sessions since I LOVE doing them so much! Even though I ain't so great at it XD

I kind of like this one except for the upper torso which I really hate... I wanted to try doing a figure drawing with watercolor so I set up a little easel and on the ground in front of the model so that the 18x24 paper wouldn't fall on me XD

This one I'm also okay with except for the torso... I wish I had more time to adjust that... I forgot how long this one was but I'm guessing it's from anywhere between 10-15 minutes.

This is a little doodle I did while I was bored one day. I noticed some girls at a nearby table just doing random things (one was studying and one was talking) so I decided to sketch them since they were far enough away from me (and pre-occupied enough) for them not to notice me~

This one is of a guy I saw on the stairs that led to the swimming pool once. I decided to draw him since he was sitting so still and he was texting which meant he wouldn't notice if I did. So here he is~

For some reason my camera was having weird things in which where I would adjust the picture and for some reason the file gets deleted after I fix it... (some of it was necessary so that I could flip the picture to be right-side up) So here's a sketch dump at last... I have a bunch of pictures saved so I'm thinking I best slowly post a few at a time so it looks like this thing is alive. =___=;

A character named "Daiky" (his full name is Daisuke Sato) as a girl. Dunno what her girl name would be. The woman with the black hair is his Mom as a young girl/woman/whatever >__>;.

MOAR bad Hetalia fanart~ I noticed in the middle that I drew England the most. XD I tried to draw France more since I drew the least of him on the page (sorry Big Brother France~). Hence why there's a little chibi him on the bottom left corner waving. I used to be okay with most of them but when I look at them again I take it back. D:< Now I don't like them that much... =_=;

Here's another Hetalia thing! Heta-mochis~ I drew a Germany one next to an Italy one. :D

Daiky's Mom and his Mom's twin sister.

SPONGEBOB freakin' SQUAREPANTSSS!!! I like this show - I dare anyone to tell me about how unawesome I am for liking it 'cause I don't care! O:< I drew this mainly as a joke for my cousin who told me to draw "Squidward". After that I decided to fill up the page with some other Spongebob stuff like Spongebob himself and Patrick. Then I added the sea-bear and the sea-rhino for more giggles. XD

Ready for Major Dumpage

Awright. I like to sketch between classes and during my break times at work so I got sketchbook doodles. I hope you enjoy them and my bad commentary for pretty much all of theeeem~~~~ D:<

First, I DID do a few digital things so I'll post that first.

They're the two vampire chicks I drew a loooong time ago but in modern times. This is what a lazy bone sketch by me looks like. SORRY YOU HAD TO SEE IT. :(

Painting ATTEMPT!!! O:< His name is Cliff, he's Ark's father. He's camping... in the desert... in the sunset... I dunno, either.

Whaaaaaat? I'm still alive!? Well! I was planning on trying to update this blog for a while but things kept popping up like me getting lost in San Jose, taking the wrong bus in San Jose, adjusting to how BUSY my life got (I have college Mon-Fri then work from Fri-Sun >__< ), and then the last reason is just the stupid reason that Dr. Mario has overtaken my life.

I was gonna post sketches last week until I realized that I couldn't find my camera so that I could take a photo of my sketches from my sketchbook. I found it like... two days ago! O: Right now I'm posting from a place where I don't have access to my camera and stuff so for now I'm going to dump in whatever I have! And then I'll dump some more later!!!!

I attempted to paint "La Divina", Maria Callas. Obviously I'm failing at it. >_O I'm trying to find the time to finish this one.

I figured out how bad I SUCKED at painting clothes so I was doing a study thing. But then I ended up being in a bad mood so uh... again with my weirdness? I started using really ugly colors together. Note to self - emo=weird art.

I tried to draw a stetson because well... Stetsons are COOL. Sadly it doesn't even LOOK like one! D:

I drew shapes randomly and ended up making some weird flying truck? I dunno, either.

I tried to do the shadows for a photo I saw - who it is I'll just leave people to guess. P: This wasn't a study of making it look like him, just a study in the shadows.